Okay, so I'm in a session with a client and coaching colleague, Noelle. Really cool lady. As with all my sessions, the empowerment gained not only serves them, it's clearly a message I am to heed as well. Their learning is my learning. So the topic of showing-up bubbles to the surface, but not in the way you are probably thinking right now. After concluding our session it got me thinking. How am I showing up? What really detonated this proverbial mushroom cloud in my mind was the following inquiry.
Go ahead, queue up the next wound for me to heal... said no one ever! "What the heck are you yammer about now Ty?" A sweet friend of mine Rachel, whom I'd like to thank for the inspiration to write this impromptu post, recently made reference to a Universal fact. The moment we courageously enter a space to begin facing ourselves a Universal "Healing Queue" co-creates everything we need to heal our ourselves.
Think you know what it takes to launch a business? After 17+ years in corporate America thought I learned a thing or two about business. I learned nothing!
Working for myself is a whole new beast altogether. I am the Owner, Graphic Designer, Marketing, Sales, and Transformational Life Coach, etc. for That Loving Space. This is not my first attempt at starting a business though.
Everyone processes that call to something greater in their own way. Every major stretch reaches a crescendo of absolute discomfort right before the shift. This is my queue in awareness that shift is afoot. So when shift in play I hunker down and listen to all dimensions of life that may begin to feel uncomfortable, and by that I mean physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.
What does it mean to become triggered?
My understanding is to become activated by a triggering event or situation. Or like the triggerfish with its two sets of moveable locking spines. When the larger forward spine is upright, the smaller one behind it (the trigger) can drop down, securing the first in place. Intended to secure the fish in place as a defense mechanism when it locks itself in a hole. That being the case, it is safe to say that triggers are relative to the interests we try to protect.
I'm betting you already knew this to be the case. Right? With so many articles on the subject, what benefit can I possibly hope offer by adding to the fray?
The mere thought of being celebrated, in any fashion, causes my anxiety to purculate. More like boil over abruptly. This extroverted introvert really only appreciates being in the lime light in the spirit of service. Teaching, sharing, guiding, and coaching, these are how I love to celebrate in the brilliance of others. Make it about me and the grip of axiety's claws tighten as they slowly shred from the inside. Sound familiar?
Parenting is the most emotionally transformational experience of my life. Having my best and worst qualities mirrored back to me. All. The. Time. Continuously working my butt off as I ride that fine line between teaching and protecting, guiding and supporting, cultivating and directing, discipline and autonomy. And through all the ups and downs, I love my spawn. Unconditionally. What does that really mean?
There's something I need to get off my chest. There's a heaviness, more like a 800 pound gorilla really. It's been attacking my inspiration. Pummeling it to the ground mercilessly. Not just my inspiration, but my dream, my passion. Sometimes, it almost wins too. But I ain't going out like that. Beaten and defeated. I can do anything I set my heart in achieving.
What if I told you the Universe is a living mirror to your very existence. What shifts in paradigm would you courageously step into?
"I want to own a home one day" said aloud with conviction to friends and family in moments of connection, that day has yet to come, nevertheless. "What gives, why is it taking so long? I've done all the work!" we proclaim to the heavens in a moment of frustration as we shake our fists. Let's do a little word play, what do "Wishful thinking", "Hopeful aspirations", and "Positive thinking" all have in common? The answer may not be what you expect. I'll get to that answer momentarily.
Do you have the will to surrender?
Odd question, eh? So much has gone down since my last post, with so much more for which to be grateful. We truly are blessed in spite of all the chaos that seems to be swirling about the world these days. This topic of resistance has been coming up a lot as of late with clients, friends and myself. I felt it best to strike while the iron is hot and hopefully speak to its antidote.
Woke up this morning feeling inspired and over the course of the past few days I realize there was a point where I found the need to “Bubble up.” Living in a home with many lively personalities I find that my capacity to remain in balance with energies outside my comfort zone is not always an easy thing. At times it can be quite uncomfortable and uneasy for me to stay in that place of perceived zen and remain loving. I catch myself becoming punchy and snippy when parenting and forget that in every opportunity I have the choice to lead with love. And sometimes love is stern and firm while kind and authentic. Punchy and snippy, however, is not very loving.
After a summer of travel, delicious eats, and more indulgent libations than any sane person who claims to care for their liver should have in one summer. Then I remember having this feeling wash over me. There was this strong desire of wanting to overhaul of my entire view and embodiment of wellness, my own wellness in particular. It wasn’t very clear at the time and in what form or how I would go about this transformation.
Will you try something with me? It's really simple. All you have to do is breathe. You know, that thing we do with our lungs. We breathe in this life giving substance to then release it, making room for the next intake. Now go ahead and slowly draw in a deep breath, hold it for 3 seconds, and slowly release, ahhhhhhh. Doesn't that feel good?
Yay, all the delightful pigments are soon to divulge their spectacular brilliance! The richness of colors will glow with vibrancy when formally concealed by luscious green chlorophyll that nourishes their finite cycle. A precious time of year, indeed, to witness such splendor.
I wonder, do trees lament their design in letting go and slumber, later to begin the process of regrowth? Or do they hold onto things that no longer serve them? What about the leaves? Their beauty and variance in pigment, all serving the same purpose and yet unique in their expression of self.
What i've come to realize is many lessons are intended to teach us how to intuit and act on truth. I remember one time (in band camp, lol) when in a field of logic listening to that inner knowing could have saved me lots of time and angst in a previous IT job. Following all the logical steps and work flows lead us no where on a troubleshooting call. Out of options and moves i had no where to go but to escalate across teams for a different perspective. All the while something was nagging at me to check a seemingly unrelated configuration parameter. Days passed and progress cascaded into a loss of time and wasted resources. In the end, it turned out to be that "unrelated" configuration as the culprit. F*CK ME!
It was a beautiful flowing sort of day. I was feeling lovely without a care in the world. Hanging with my new squeeze while she organizes employee logistics. Then a sudden wave of anxiety washed over me. "Babe, all of a sudden I feel anxious when I have no reason to feel this way" I look over and say. "Really..." she says with surprise and intrigued by how timely it all seemed. "Yeah, weird..." Then she follows up with "...that's interesting. When I saw the list of shifts needing to be filled I freaked out a little inside." Coincidence? I f*cking think not!
As many of you may already know of my emphatic Spiritually driven desire to coach the masses on their path to personal and intuitive development towards higher self. What you may not know is how I had to open myself up to the unknown by saying goodbye a very dear Love, my sweet darling muse of two years. Not only that but I also needed released several aspects and ideas of who and what I "thought" I was as I stepped through this process of surrendering completely to the Unknown.